Hello Everyone:
I just got out of bed a few moments ago (1:53 a.m.) and am trying not to overreact to my symptoms. No, I am not in pain or anything like that. However, I usually sleep on my left side because my right feels a bit tender. In all honesty, it has for some time, yet this morning the right seems better and the left feels tender.
Basically, when I touch it it hurts a little bit and feels like something is protruding out a little. I don't feel dizzy or anything like that and am not sure what it is. To be honest, it feels like 'maybe' I should go to the hospital or something.
No, nothing is bleeding or anything like that but (again) to touch it it feels that it hurts a bit. I am supposed to go help someone this morning and get my computer worked on but am trying not to overreact.
More importantly, I am thinking about the AVM and not trying to cry or anything. I guess I should send a message to my Caregiver just to let her know what's happening.
Again, I feel fine but am a bit concerned because it wasn't like this "before." I was going to have everything looked at several month ago in order to have a process report but I kept changing the appointment. Why? I guess you could say that I am one of these people that would rather let something happen then know in advance that I have an issue. Or, to be told that my time was limited...I'd rather kept my head under a rock. The idea o f knowing would make me feel worse.
I want to stay positive and looking forward. I don't want to see the ugly monster that may be out there. To be honest, I don't think that I could live comfortably and positively if I knew. I really don't think I could. I am not that kind of person.
Sure, I love life and the second chance that I've been given. I want to enjoy life and let the positivity guide me until that's it. I don't want to live in worry and I know I am the kind of person that would.
Gee, does anyone else experience these things on their head? I guess I forgot to mention it is on my head. Well, that's all for now but I love this network because when you really "need someone" this is the place to go because all of you have been there in some way.
I am keeping my head up and I can't go back to bed now. I just need to stay up now.
Thanks for listening,
Judie
*Sorry for any spelling errors I am awake and just writing because I need to get it all out.