I hope you are all doing well. I am doing fantastic for the first time in I dont know how long. As it turns out, I had a healthy dose of chronic stress to go along with my AVM. i guess the worry and pain I took on this year in addition to what I had worked myself into was all I could bare. With the incredible help from family and my employer, I have completely released the stress that had been killing me and my mind is now in a rested state that has become unfamiliar to me. I am now focusing on resting and building back my strength to take on whatās to come in December. Eye of the Tiger.
Unfortunately, this sounds quite familiar to me - sorry for being a little late to reply. Iāve been trying to lay off from this place since it unfortunately sometimes adds to the stress Iām already dealing with
Very similar stuff with me - got shot back into ER last month
I was running a 24x7 shifts doing tows 7 days a week + working out in the AZ 110+ degree weather during the day. I pulled back on the tows - next morning, the right side of my brain felt like it was gonna pop out of my skull.
Diagnosed with brain swelling - they hit me with a cocktail of meds. I passed out in a corner of a ER room. My wife found me when I stopped texting her for an hour. . . The ER folk thought I left
Ever since then - it hasnāt been easy. . . I am the only one that works, I have no paid time off since I am self employed.
No idea how Iām even doing this well - but, Iām a tad lost at the moment - everyoneās 2 cents is to ātake it easyā - but, life & bills donāt stop for how i physically/mentally feel
Ever since then, Iāve been āoffā - I keep myself from freaking out. But, itās quite difficult.
No real input here - just thought Iād throw in how Iām doing in comparison. . . Since no one around me has any clue on how I actually feel - kinda nice to speak out somewhere where someone can relate
Hi Mike, thanks for reading my update; I have been downer enough I thought some positivity around here would be welcome.
I sympathize with you on this as that was the thing holding me to the fire, until I was able to get that concern put aside for now.
I hear you loud and clear. This may be what I should be putting on the tattoo I am considering. Mike, I am hopefully coming out of exactly what you are describing and can tell you that the last few days I have felt emotions that I have not felt in years; even having to get my wife to confirm for me that they are legit. They had become that foreign. Not out of the woods yet I know, but have to start somewhere.
The only advice I can offer to you is, find whatever gives you a rise in your current mood and keep doing that until it becomes habit. Thinking positive only helps if you include something positive to go along with the thoughts. Make sure you feel every emotion for real and donāt question if it is the correct one; that is what I have been working on.