Hello everyone out there haven't been online for a while, been feeling quite low at times. I'm normally a positive person but everything seems to be dragging on now. I'm losing my job at the end of this month been to see a occupational doctor lastweek. I was hoping for a positive results but the doctor still thinks I'm not ready for another 3 months. I can be sat watching television and just start crying for no reason, it's really wierd my emotions are very up and down. It's just over 2years since my operation my walking is getting better but my arm doesn't want to play if you know what I mean. Headaches are still the same I think I need a holiday or something, anyway sorry to carry on, I hope my friends out there are ok it's been really hot and sunny in England for 2 weeks now summer is finally here :)
Just talking with someone helps at times! It has been hot everywhere!
I know for me I was never a person to cry and now I cry whenever I see something bad on the news or even a movie where someone dies...which is silly
I had a stroke before my DAVF and someone told its normal when we have something happen to our brain that we are more emotional. I just go with it.
I also lost my ability to swear which was weird but after my angio and embolism it came back.
Its been 2.5 years since my stroke and I still cant do stairs and have weakness on my left side but I look fine to everyone...
Its okay to feel low its better than supressing your feelings. PT goes slow with us and take the time to really concentrate on you and getting your strength back.
Angela
I hope this rely finds you having a better day. FYI- This is the place to talk and let it all out. Keeping it in, for me, makes it harder for me to get out of my funk...I don't know your story, but I experienced highs and lows with my emotions also and headaches.
It's been many years since my gamma-knife surgery, my AVM has shrunk, and no more seizures, but do have occasional "auras". Just keep doing what you're doing. It all gets better, and don't be too hard on yourself. I am able to do much more with confidence as time goes on.
Good luck, and stay cool with lots of water.
Gail
I’m so sorry to hear about your job, perhaps you will be able to find anew passion during the gorgeous summer! You ate in my prayers Darren, God bless you
Hi Darren! It's been 2yrs & 5mos since I survived my massive brain hemorrhage due to my AVM and after 15 long months of treating the AVM, I was told that there are not any signs of the AVM any longer; hence AVM-Free :-))! While I have so much LIFE & Gratitude to be celebrating now; I do find myself being hyper sensitive now and do have my days where I could burst out into tears for no reason at all. While I have been so very Blessed in many ways in persevering thru my AVM trial; I think we can all agree that we do become a different person when all is said and done. I'm not sure is you've seen a posting from month ago and is a "Letter from your Brain" that may help you thru some of the day when you are feeling low. Please do remember to always "Be kind to yourself" and know that these low days are quite normal and May God Bless YOU with this Peace during these days.
http://www.avmsurvivors.org/profiles/blogs/a-letter-from-your-brain
Hang in There my friend!
Michele
xo
Darren, We all go through it at certain times. We are here to support you! I'm glad you are seeing a Neuropsy..Wishing you the best!
First off I want to say sorry to hear about your job. I have a few friends that are currently loosing their positions and I know how hard it can be to have that uncertainty. But I also know that things will work out for you!
I had a bleed last year and almost died from hydrocephalus. I have never been a super emotional person who would cry when watching a movie (unless it was anything sad that has to do with animals). Ever since last year if I see something sad on TV or in a movie I become a blubbering crying idiot. Heck, I saw a TV commercial for the hospital that saved my life and my doctor was actually in the commercial. Every time I saw it I would start sobbing. He is the most amazing doctor and I owe him my life so it is hard not to get emotional when I see him.
These emotions are normal after having a near death experience or having any sort of trauma associated with the brain. I think after any sort of trauma it is commonplace to have these sorts of emotions. Part of it is us being thankful for being alive and well and part of it could be a little bit of PTSD. I had developed really BAD PTSD after everything happened to me last summer. I was afraid of my own shadow and hated to be left alone. It has taken me a year now to start feeling better and move positive about everything.
Talking with a neuropsych is the BEST move you can make at this point in time. They will help give you the tools to manage what you are feeling :)