As many people know I have an AVM in my right foot which resisted embolisation and developed CRPS putting everything on hold.
I also have a weird bundle of blood vessels in my left eye, which in 2014 bled. However because the bleed cleared up in a month no investigations were done at that time and I was just told to avoid anti-inflammatory meds to prevent another bleed.
Skip forward to February this year and I was at the opticians where they took photos of the bundle of blood vessels after I mentioned the AVM in my foot, They recommended and referred me to get seen at the eye hospital.
Thursday this week I had my telephone appointment with the Royal Free for the foot AVM - where I was told that I would likely be tried on the immunosuppressant drug (as they canât do another embolisation due to the CRPS), but that I should now start considering a below the knee amputation (which rather than being through the foot as I was initially told by a local hospital will in fact be through the leg itself),
Then Friday rolled around and off to the eye hospital I went. After sticking a load of drops in my eye and taking several photos (no needles needed for these thank goodness), they stated that not only did I have a weird bundle of blood vessels in the back of my left eye, but weird blood vessels at the front of my right eye (but in the white of the eye so should not cause too much of a problem),
I forgot to add this this morning (panic brain very much engaged that) - but the eye dr said they would monitor me (but no idea if they will offer any treatment at this stage or if they wait till it becomes a problem and vision loss starts).
I asked them if it was another AVM? And then I heard something I never thought I would hear: an AVM is the least scary thing it could be.
I did not ask what else it could be. I am already having enough issues. But I did ask what the worst case scenario was. Answer: loosing vision.
Umm, what? I kinda need my eyes to see to be an archaeologist! This isnât a career that I can do if I loose sight in both eyes!
And of course my brain is now spiralling into all worst case scenarioâs like what if I have a cancer they havenât spotted yet, what if I am dying! What also doesnât help was the news that there had been an error on my blood test last week when they were taking a full blood count, and I have to wait three months before they repeat it. So of course my brain is now screaming in panic that maybe they spotted something on the blood but thought it an error and what if it isnât!
Long story short - I am having to now consider amputation, might loose sight in at least one eye and am terrified that they missed something that might be fatal if not treated soon enough. (The news stories about people being missed with cancer and now being terminal is also not helping my anxiety either).