Hi Linda,
Certainly understandable to be angry, depressed, mad, hateful, sad, cheated, and a slug of other similar emotions.
My wife had an AVM many years ago, survived that relatively unscathed (in the giant scheme of things) and just this year found out she has colon cancer. Surgery, now chemo, then who knows. Prognosis is good. One of her comments was "I survived the AVM, have been taking great care of myself, eating well, exercising, doing it all right. Now CANCER??????????????????"
It will not be an easy adaptation, but here's my two cents worth:
Find a good counselor who can help you sort out your feelings. He/She will likely have you write them down as it helps to organize your thoughts/feelings. Then together, you can assess where you are and try to formulate a plan to go forward.
Treatment / followup on your AVM will have a lot to do with recovery.
Know that your plan can't show "here I am now, and in six months, I want to be 100% like before." Your plan will require revisions as you progress. There will good days/months and bad days/months.
My guess is you will be surprised at how much you can improve in a short time. Celebrate that success.
Thought about this some more: Try taking a sheet of paper and make three columns on it. In column A, write down the things you no longer can do. In column B, write down how that makes you feel, in column C, write down ways to mitigate column A. For example, if you write down "Can't drive to get groceries", in column C write down all the potential people that can either drive you there, or go get your groceries for you, or a combo of both.
Hope this helps.
Ron, KS