Well, I made it to July. I don’t know how I’ve come this far, but I have. 1st appointment at the gamma centre at the end of this month. I’m counting the days and frightened and anxious. Dreading another angio - can’t face it. Don’t know how I’ll cope with that frame thing being attached to my head. My body no longer feels like it’s mine, and I don’t recognise myself as me when I look in the mirror, even though my appearance hasn’t changed. I feel dirty and invaded, and can’t wash myself clean. I don’t trust doctors, and I’m starting to believe they’re trying to get me. On the positive side I’ve had my first trip to the seaside this year. My partner and children are wonderful, and work is going well too. Full-time again now!!